Momentary Disengagement

Ever wondered how alone we are? Take God away, take your partners away, take your friends away, take your relatives away. This world then is composed of beings, souls and objects that we try giving life to. Will our ideals in life still hold?

About 5 months ago, I decided to put this to the test. Working in a remote site in NT tested my strength. No friends and family to come home to, juz the TV, my shower and bed. No partner to share and help dissipate the heat from work. No social life whatsoever, and certainly no plausible entertainment, well....not those that you wanna indulge in anyway. I never yielded.

This, is not withstanding the fact that I hate the job. My reasons are many. Take all the luxuries and life's contraptions away, take all the borrowed attention away, take all the humour away, my ideals were challenged but not taken away. I have met a myriad of people from different walks of life, shared drinks with strangers and discussed many topics over meals. I have, indeed, an expanded horizon and am an extention of the shadows of the past. I still don't know where to next. I still don't know how to next. I still don't know who I would share my life with next. For now, I only have one outcome.

I am now, used to walking alone.